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You see it happen nearly every day in the streets: getting catcalled, whistled at, followed or touched inappropriately. When you tell them to fuck off, you’re suddenly a bitch. It scares me immensly, but I am not too sure about how to prevent it all. If I can prevent it. Additionally, i have been raped when I was 9, as well as when i was 16. I keep thinking that nevertheless it might have been my own fault after all. And if this makes me a repulsive, dirty or bad person. I am afraid of sharing this, because I don’t want to lose the people around me, but at times it is lonely and difficult. Luckily, I have been able to share everything with a psychologist who handled it in a great way. I hope that one day I don’t have to re-live the events in my nightmares and flashbacks, that I can leave my house without feeling panicked, will be able to relax. Because, honestly, I don’t even know what it feels like to not be afraid anymore.